Monday, August 16, 2010
Sunday, January 3, 2010
My heart breaks for which we didn't know.....
The hidden thoughts, the under handed lies, the whispered daggers,
if only, i had known.....
then life would be different, and i'd have loved another..
But instead i fell in love, with my dreamboy, my heaven,
but he became my hellboy, my nightmare n i had 2 hate you for a long time..
I even hated the sound of your name, the smile on your face, the look in your eyes,
and my own soul cried 4 revenge n my spirit told me take it lyte.....
I know you loved me, but you loved her as well..
but in some ways i understand, in others i will be lost forever....
Yet many friends told me no and they even warned me to stay away..
but i was lured in "different" and i gave the stressed completely on god 4 that,
i thank you also for showing what isn't love n how i should avoid letting my guard down,
i understood how love can be a foul four letter word 4 guys like U
...love is jst a game n thatz gone...
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
We're over, there's nothing left of us
So why are the tears starting to fall?
It isn't supposed to be this way at all
We said our goodbyes, similarly moved on..
You don't want anything to do with me
So why are you in my thoughts?
We fought all the time, non-stop
You always called me names
Made me feel guilty for everything
So why do I still need you?
I'm the one who chose to end it
I thought that was what I wanted
It was better off that way for both of us
So why do I still love you?
I won't let anyone know my feelings of you.
Nobody can know that I'm still loving you.
Please Lord, forgive me for I have sinned.
I've committed the biggest crime: I'm missing you.
I cOuldn'T ImaGinE LifE wIthOut yOu......
wIthOut yOu I'd bE empty.....
My hEaRt,mY heart -Empty.....!!
Right aFter a light rain,have yOu eVer seeN.......A rAinBoW that ToUchEd the sKy?
wHerE It meeTs nExt tO a pOt Of a gold...!!
Like a fuLL mOOn it hAngs nExt tO the hEavEnLy cLOuDs......
fRom wHich yOu cOme,yOu aRe mY sHininG sTaR.........!!
EvEn the sUn mEaNs nOtHiNg tO mE...!!
It hAs nO sEnSe If yOu're nOt hEre.....
I hAvE tO See you aGain tO wAkE uP...
I tHink I wOn't bE abLe tO sUrvIvE lOngEr.....!!
WHy cOuLdn't I bE hApPy wItHoUt yOu ?
I've gOt mY fRiEnDs, mY fAmiLy & my feeLinGs......
ThEy aLso seEm tO bE gOnE oNce & fOr aLL.........
ThE wOrLd iS eMpTy whEn I miss yOu...!!
wIthOuT yOu iT wOuLd bE a LifeleSs LifE tHaT I wOuLd LiVe......
I can't imagine myself without you.....!!
Friday, August 21, 2009
hoping to find my smile.
But as usual, no smile. I look and I look, but it's nowhere to be found.
I keep my eyes peeled wherever I go, but still no luck.
When I try to think just where it might be...
I can't help but wonder...
if maybe you know where I left my smile, b'cause the last time I saw it, I was with you.....
I remember the smiles that crept on my face and the happy tears that ran down my cheeks.
I see your warm, gentle eyes looking at me, and I can feel your presence when I close my eyes, but when I reach for you, I feel you slipping away...
It's like my memory is fading.
I'm scared of everything,
I'm scared of who I am,
what I saw,
what I did,
but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you
growing up, growing together, changing you, changing me
There were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed and cried together.
As I look back on those days,
I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever..
whatever the future holds, our today's make the memories of tomorrow.
So, my lifetime friend, it is with all my heart that I send you my love, hoping that you'll always carry my smile with you, for all we have meant to each other and for whatever the future may hold ...